Psalm 86:11

Vewy, Vewy exhausted:) Still having a tough time. I am frustrated with the whole situation but its out of my hands and I HAVE THE BEST BEST BEST FRIENDS IN THE WORLD!!! bff number one is home for a while and he is such a trooper:) how he puts up with me and my unhappy self is beyond me! Bff number two has been texting me and checking on me and sent me the most meaningful text I think I have ever received, Its a quote from a book she is reading called Forgotten God by Francis Chan " I cannot convince people to be obsessed with Jesus perhaps I can talk people into praying a prayer, but I cannot talk anyone into falling in love with Christ. I cannot make someone understand and accept the gifts of grace. Only the holy spirit can do that. So by every measure that actually counts, i need the holy spirit. Desperately" Its a wonderful quote and fits my situation perfectly but also the point that she made the time to type all that out and was thinking and praying for me in her devotion just gives me goosebumps. That is what I want most from my ex I mean sure I wanted him to have a relationship with God and understand what I am so passionate about, But I want someone to support me spiritually and I know they are praying for me just as hard as I am praying for them. To me that is the most important thing now. That's what I want out of all my relationships. Friends, Family and future (lets say five years) romantic relationships. I want to get as close to God as I can this year and learn as much as possible. My word for this year is CONSUMED and that's what I will be pursuing. "Teach me your way O Lord, and I will walk in your truth; give me an undivided heart, that I may fear your name"