Romans 8:26

Well.... Interesting week to say the least. I have never felt so alone in my life. There is a quote that describes the way I feel perfectly "Throwing punches in the air". I just feel hopeless and exhausted even though I have so much going for me right now. At home I have so many people at home being so supportive I just am having issues adjusting to my new lifestyle. I feel like I am missing out on some part of my life like moving out and going away to school but I know that would lead to distraction and considering how intense of a career I am aiming towards would not work out. Its extremely short sighted and immature for me to even think about moving out at this point but while i am busting it working and going to school my friends are out making more friends and having the time of their lives. I don't know if I should just stop going to see them or what but every single time I come home from one of my little trips I come home feeling as though I am not accomplishing jack shit and I am missing out on a fun part of life and I am going to regret it later. Though in far sight I will be more successful and accomplish my dream. I WILL NOT be the first to move back in with their parents after moving out on my own and I will pay for my own stuff. The interview I supposably am receiving hasn't e-mailed me back since wednesday so I don't exactly know what this means and I can feel my yearly bout of seasonal depression come back. Every single year around this time I get so down in the dumps I barely have the will power to get dressed. Halloween was fun but I am not going to lie I was disappointed and I luckily realized that I am not the only one feeling insufficient. My friend Emily feels the same way. She lives at home and is working on her second degree. I am just fed up in general and I NEED a good week. "In the same way, the spirit helps us in out weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express". Thank God knows what I need right now because I sure don't.