Isiah 35:4

wow I need STRENGTH its only wednesday? I have had the worst past two days. Yesterday things just kept going wrong then to make it all worse I went to the wrong class yesterday. It was supposed to be Sign Lang 111. It turns out I went to 112. No one would speak to me. Only signing so it was definitely tough. Today just stupid things went wrong all DAY LONG. nothing drastic just aggravation. I just feel so dis-heartened. Its hard to accept things you don't want to happen and to make all things worse I keep having these dreams that are sooo sooo horrible and realistic. I am walking from my math class to my car at school and then I get raped by this big man. Its soo soo scary!! I don't know exactly what its all about but its terrible and its making me not want to go to sleep. Which is what I need. SO the vicious cycle continues haha "say to those with fearful hearts, be strong do not fear; your God will come, he will come with vengeance; with divine retribution he will come to save you." I don't really understand why I keep having this dream. I mean I am not one of those girls whose first thought of the worst thing that could happen to me is rape. Honestly my fear is being stabbed, the thought of seeing myself bleed and suffer really scares me to an extreme. I also feel very safe in charlotte. The majority of the time I walk to my car with other classmates with my pepper spray in hand. Its all lit and there is always people around. I just hope this dream stops. I am exhausted.