Psalm 56:4

Well lets play catch up. I have almost finished shopping for friend presents, now just family and boyfriend presents. Yes I said boyfriend. The commit-phob is in a relationship. Haha miracles do happen:) or just wonderful people happen to be in your life. I am not sure how to handle it. I seriously am scared beyond anyones comprehension. I don't wanna fall hardest. "The person who cares the most has the least amount of control". This always scares me. I fall harder hand over control and end up hurt EVERY SINGLE TIME! This time I have been really slow about letting my guard down and metro is absolutely A-OK with it. He is probably one of the most respectful people I have ever, EVER met!!!! There is no rush for anything and nothing is expected of me. "In God, whose words I praise, In God I trust; I will not be afraid. What can mortal man do to me?" He understands more than a lot of people and what he doesn't he tries really hard. He is so sensitive and classy. I have no fear of how he will act around anyone and he is definitely one of the smartest people I know. Therefore I am falling but extremely, EXTREMELY slowly :D On a sad note our sweet kitty Mango got ran over and killed by a car yesterday:( We are all having an extremely hard time with this. I think Mom is having the hardest time. Last night we went to Gaffney and when we came home Mango use to greet us and follow us to the door for us to put her in the garage to bed and feed her and play with her and for the first time in three years she wasn't there. Mom cried the entire way to the door. It was pitiful. Things will get better. Christmas is coming and it should lift all of our spirits.