1 Thessalonians 5:9

Many new starts and ending since I last blogged. Mostly positive. New Puppy, definitely positive. New Boyfriend, haha Mostly positive;). Planning to move out in August, absolutely positive. Lots of marvelous things going on right now. Working a lot. Praying a lot. Thinking a lot. Cleaning up after Heidi a lot. I seriously don't see how parents do it. I mean for pete's sake she's a dog! But at times I feel like I am losing my sanity from repetition. I had a decent birthday. I am starting to feel like I am setting the bar too high in every relationship I'm in, romantic and friend. I just expect them to want to see me when I want to see them and I want them to love me as much as I love them. Which a lot of the time is a more than I should expect. You cannot make someone care about you. It just won't happen, no matter how bad it hurts. Also you have to keep in mind people display love in different ways. I like it verbally. I like to hear how much I mean to people. I like the little things. Remembering me when you know I have had a bad day and surprising me with my favorite something, little notes and pointless texts. My hands down biggest need and favorite is spiritually supportive. Thats something I have discovered this year and my need for it in my relationships. For me to know someone is praying for me and having discussions with God about me, means more than tiffany's, chanel any kind of tangible gift EVER COULD. I am going to try this year for God to CONSUME all relationships with spiritual support. I think it could help in more ways than anything else ever could. "Therefore encourage one another and build each other up, just as in fact you are doing."

Another thing I have started to realize and it was from the help of my book was from five words from a highly known verse. "God so loved the world". The world- everyone, every denomination, race, gender sexuality, political party, gang, school, every single person, yes even the guy who tailgated you on the daily commute to work, God so loved him too. SO If God so loved him there is obviously a reason why. Even if there isn't one that you can find, we are suppose to attempt to mirror him so you should try to love him anyways.